Worry

Ah, how I wish I wasn't a worrier... I come from a long line of worriers so breaking the pattern isn't easy. Although I try my best to remember that God is in control and nothing I can do will change this I still find myself sitting here tonight with a lot on my mind. I worry about Eric's job. Some strange things seem to be going on and no one is communicating very well. We have been waiting for months to see if Eric will be moving from his night shift to a day shift and the time appears to us to be drawing closer for a transition to be made, yet still none of the "leads" know what's going on. I worry that if Eric is passed over for this shift change his heart will be broken. I worry how on earth I will manage having an infant and a toddler at home all day if my husband needs the house to be relatively quiet for him to sleep...

I'm also worried about our ultrasound on Friday. I'm super excited to find out if this is a boy or girl (because for the life of me I have no feelings either way...) yet I'm more excited to know that all their internal organs are developing and functioning as they should. I think with this pregnancy I am much more aware of all the birth defects and complications that can occur... I spend too much time looking up various kinds of syndromes on the internet and am petrified of giving birth a child that needs to spend time in the NICU. Honestly when we were pregnant with Elijah I think both Eric and I were blissfully ignorant to how blessed we were to have given birth to a healthy child. I know that God has formed this child in his image and that long before we knew they were coming he already the three of us picked out for one another.

And while I'm at it, I'll throw out one more Worry. I worry about Elijah not being a baby any more. He'll only be 20 months old in July and I sincerly hope that with the arrival of his younger sibling he doesn't feel the need to grow up too fast. I love Eli with all my being and cannot imagine my life without him. I know that I'll feel the same about the 'new one' too (I already love them and at this point all they do is kick me and cause me to go to the bathroom A LOT!) but I worry that Eli will never remember a time when it was just him and mommy and daddy. He has taught me so much about life and myself and even when he's 58 and I'm 84 (I plan on living a looooonnnngggg time) he will know that he will ALWAYS be a baby to me.

Yikes! It's past midnight, I best be in bed.

-Sarah

Lacking motivation for just about everything...

I'm officially 10 weeks pregnant and have lost all motivation in life. I have Christmas presents that still need to be wrapped, work for Catalytic that needs to be done and a house that could use much more cleaning attention than I'm giving it... But you know what? I don't seem to care! :-) My tummy is getting bigger by the day (yes, even at 10 weeks...) and all I want to do is enjoy my time with Eli and take naps. Speaking of which, it's getting late so I best go to bed to ensure at least nine hours before the little mister wakes up!

Merry Christmas!

Double Trouble

This morning while doing some laundry I realized that it was incredibly too quiet in the living room... any mom knows that this is never a good sign. I came downstairs to discover that either Eli or Daisy had pulled the Cheerio's box off the kitchen table and that both of them were partaking in an all out gorge fest! AHHH I swear those two are out to get me! Good thing I love them both and have a mighty strong vacuum to clean up the mess.

...Life with a one year old! :-)

Back in the saddle again!

I'm sure all our loyal blog readers (all three of you...) have certainly missed me the past six months. I have no excuse for my absence except for utter laziness. However, starting today I am vowing to update the family blog at least once a week! I love the potential that blogging has of recording our family's history so, as uneventful as our life is, I'll do my best to document it.

Last night The Trio met Mike and Kaydee in Everett to check out the house they have an offer in on. It was really cool to snoop around the place and share in their excitement. The house will fit their needs totally, is in a cool neighborhood and has lots of improvement potential... Fingers crossed they are able to close and begin the moving in process after the new year! After the tour the five of us went to dinner at Applebees followed by an uneventful game of Apples to Apples and watching college football at our place. Eli as always was a darling and Uncle Mike and Kaydee (hopefully soon to be Aunt Kaydee...) love him to pieces!

Today we went to church and then headed to Mike and Kaydee's apartment in Bothell for breakfast... you'd think they'd be sick of us by now?! :-) After feasting on cinnamon rolls and eggs with ham Eric and I left Mister with M&K for a few hours. However, before we left all within a minute Mister managed to break a candle holder and then knock over a full cup of coffee on himself.... AHHH! Good thing he's so cute. We LOVED our time away from Mister; ran some errands, Eric ate sushi and went to New Moon! I liked the movie and Eric, well he put up with it... I suppose I didn't help because I was quietly chanting for Jacob to take his shirt off from the first scene he was in. :-)

Now, Eric is napping before going to work tonight and I'm lounging... Eli is asleep too, which reminds me that I should probably wake him up if I want him to sleep tonight. :-)

Hasta La Vista VOLT!

After over three years of working at VOLT in Redmond today is my last day. Looking back at my time here it has been a great place to gain real world work experience, make some friends I know I'll have forever and quite simply "grow up". I remember my first day in March 2006; I was scared to death! Not sure that I would even be able to handle the duties of my new position (Administrative Assistant) and intimidated beyond belief by everything from the key card reader to the coffee maker... don't even get me started on all the new software programs I had to master! However, as time went on I learned all that had once scared me and more!

Eventually after several failed internal interviews for other positions (ever get the feeling that certain people simply don't like you no matter what you do or say?!) I was promoted to a Recruiter on the Northwest account. Again, even though I had been sitting back and waiting for a spot to open up and studying everything that Recruiters did, I was scared. I was overwhelmed by all my new responsibility and quickly learned that you weekly 'stats' can make or break you. But through the mentoring of some awesome people I feel I became a pretty decent Recruiter, though be it right before I left for Maternity Leave.

Anyway, to wrap this all up, I'll be sad to leave the office today for the last time. Packing my desk will start soon as will telling my team mates... VOLT has been very good to me and in turn I only hope "they" feel the same way about me.

Stay at home mommy status here I come!!!

Letter to Eli at Five Months Old

My Little bug-a-boo,

You turned five months old on Easter Sunday. We had a wonderful day together with both sides of our family. We went to the church in Ellensburg with Grammy, Grandpa, Uncle Matt and Keegan. Daddy held you while we sang the praise songs but once the service started you got a little fussy. You had just had a bottle before church so I knew you weren't hungry so you and I spent the rest of the service in the Northex. I was so proud to show you off! You were wearing the cutest little outfit that we bought you at Baby Gap (for your Dedication a few weeks ago) and all of Grammy and Grandpa's church friends oooh-ed and ahhhh-ed over you. After church we went to Papa Randy and Grandma Linda's house for Easter brunch with 30 of our closest family and friends. As always your cousins Lily and Bella thought you were the best thing ever! They sure do love you.

You are growing and changing every day! I love it and I hate it. Daddy and I think you are cutting your first tooth because you have been chewing your hands a lot and drooling like crazy! You also giggle all the time; your whole family thinks you are the coolest thing ever when you do it. When we hold you in our laps you have strengh enough to stand up for a little bit and I think very soon you'll be able to sit on your own. You are the light of our lives and I cannot imagine my life without you!

Most nights you go to bed between 9:00-9:30 and sleep until 6:00-6:45. Since Daddy leaves early for work we get to spend the mornings together before you go to daycare and I go to work. I love mornings with you because you are so cuddly. I'm not nursing you anymore but you seem to be satisfied with your "babas". You are a great eater and are big for your age. Looking at the size of Daddy and his brothers I think you'll be a very tall and strong man when you grow up! We have been trying to introduce solid foods to you, but so far you aren't the biggest fan. You have had prunes, carrots and rice cereal; with prunes being your favorite. This week I'm planning on making you some peas.

You continue to bring us incredible joy every day. We love you so much.

Love,

Mommy

Our Day with Keegan!

Today we had the pleasure of watching our three year old nephew Keegan while his mom and dad went to first time home buyers class. He arrived a little before 9am and Matt and Mia picked him up at 5:00pm. We played outside, went to McDonald's for lunch and Keegan even made a trip with us to Lowe's before taking a good nap. Eric and I absolutely love Keegan and really enjoyed the day with him. From the below pictures I think he had a pretty good time too!...

I just love this picture of his muddy feet!

Playing with the hose and running through the sprinkler was Keegan's favorite part. But let the record show that taking off his dirty clothes was his idea! Also, I'm still not sure how his undies ended up backwards...